The Day of the Ride

August 13th, 2016

Dear Diary,

Let’s be honest, the pretense of my writing a diary is shot at this point. It barely lasted through the first day. Now there is no way it was going to last through this post. But at least I tired. I stayed committed even though I didn’t want to  be.

Well ride day has come and the excitement I haven’t seen when it comes to riding in a long time, has appeared. I guess this is a good thing. Got up early and hopped in the shower and got ready for the ride. I

After that was breakfast. Yay, food. Not as good as the cheese curds.

After breakfast I set my basal rates and got ready to kick off the ride. Man it was early.

Yep, that was me the morning of the ride. I looked so happy and graceful. Honestly, I met both of those expectations this time. The ride starts easily enough, I think it’s because I remembered to stretch, huge different. As the ride begins we broke off into different start groups, so that all 330 of us were not riding off at once.

I felt good, at this point I was convinced that I was going to do more than I had planned on doing originally. I wasn’t rushing myself to do the full loop. After the start things do become a blur, not in a bad way, it’s a bunch of riding, but also riding with people you know or don’t know, chatting or just riding.

I hit the first break point faster than I had anticipated refilled my supplies, stretched, chatted with some people and started to head out again. Once again I was with a different group of people, but we eventually separated and continued on the ride.

Break point 2 fast approached, got more water, took care of some things, had some electrolytes and pickles and pickle juice, disgusting but good. At this point I considered how I was feeling and decided to press on to break point 3. The ride was still good, I really hit my stride in Iowa.

See I’m still happy and still judgemental. At this point I was at 42ish miles and I had to make the choice to continue in the loop or not. After careful consideration of my body, my legs felt fine, I think I could have handled the hills, but other parts of me were starting to act up. So I decided to partner up with another rider and start heading back.

The was a good decision, Peggy and I chatted most of the way, but I lost her a few times as she was moving a lot slower than I was, and would slow down periodically. I never intentionally left her behind, but sometimes my pace on the “hills” left her behind. So as we got closer to the remaining break points, she would yell at me to go ahead and she would catch up. That worked for me.

The ride back was slightly rough, the tail wind we had on the way out was now a headwind on the way back. That added up, but honestly I felt cool because of the wind. The last 10 miles of this ride are the worst, because there are road signs for La Crescent, Minnesota and La Crosse, Wisconsin so you knew how much riding you had left. I swear the bridge over the Mississippi which was so easy on the way out, now was the biggest challenge to face. At this point I was riding with Tracy, who I had breakfast with the day prior and we crossed the finish line together.

That was it, they yell our names, they are clapping, and cheering us on. They give you a medal, which is hanging on my door, and you get to stop riding. That was the best part, well that and the ice cream sandwich.

All in all the ride was good, no major issues, I felt great at the end, well 95% of me did, my tail ed was not happy with me in the least. That was a pain in the ass…. HAHAHA. but seriously, it hurt.

Things that were great is once again with testing dealing with and changing my basal rates along the way, I started and ended where I needed to be.


My morning low had me thrown off because I went to bed at 185 and I adjusted. Apparently, my body decided to metabolize my insulin differently this time. It is what it is. I am just glad to have done this ride.

As I said earlier my desire to ride was at a low before the ride, however, things are different. I think truly it is because I made the ride about the ride and not about NEEDING to do the full 100. Once blue makes it back from La Crosse we have a date. And I am happy about that.

So on that note, diary I am done with you, I am never going to write to you again. At least I will need to be on something to decide to write diary style again.

On that note I am done finished writing.

Good Bye diary and world.


Dblog Week #2: Shhhh….

Today’s suggested topic is quite interesting, okay, fine yesterday’s topic, but still interesting nonetheless.

Many of us share lots of aspects of our diabetes lives online for the world to see.  What are some of the aspects of diabetes that you choose to keep private from the internet?  Or from your family and friends?  Why is it important to keep it to yourself?  (This is not an attempt to get you out of your comfort zone.  There is no need to elaborate or tell personal stories related to these aspects.  Simply let us know what kinds of stories we will never hear you tell, and why you won’t tell them.)

Years ago when I started this blog, I spent alot of time giving thought to what I was going to publicize, what I wasn’t going to publicize and if I would open the D-world to my family and friends. At that time, I choose no, I was not going to share make things easily accessible to those who were around me. Why? To this day, I am not quite sure. It just felt right.

Honestly, I think part of it is, when I was younger, I was the only person in my high school of 800 people with the illness, over time the number would increase to there being 3 of us, that was it. It was not a conversation I wanted to have with people. Everyday, I went to the nurse, tested, had my lunch and continued on with my day. Did people know about it? Yes, but it was never anything that I talked about. It was my “disease” not theirs. Well that and I never really share what is going on in my head.

As time moved on, while I am more open about these things and people who know or who need to know are aware of my type-1 diabetes, I never truly try to make a big deal of it. It is only a small part of me. So when I started blogging, the idea of my blog was to be able to write about anything I wanted to, without my family or friends seeing the sometimes real or frustrating struggles I have had to deal with. Is this wise? Probably not, but it is what it is. To this day, when people ask about the name for my Instagram account or Twitter handle I just say, it’s what I picked at the time, no other answer.

In the world I advocate silently for things diabetes related and that is how I work. Granted this year I am doing a JDRF ride in Wisconsin, hoping for the century mark, so yes my Facebook page is filled with guilt ridden requests to hit my goal, that is really the only time that diabetes things will show up on my personal pages. In this day and age, I have a great support system in my friends both nearby and across the country, when I seriously have issues I know there are people I can talk to about these things. So I choose to not talk to other people about those things, they can only nod their heads and talk about people they know who may have diabetes. Why make them feel sorry for me? It’s not what I do.

I would much rather have my family and friends just think I am bat shit crazy and go on from there.

StitchOld picture, still one of my favorite. Photo cred to Sara, otherwise I will hear about it.

On a side note, yes I mentioned my JDRF Ride, I know you all do your own fundraising for walks and stuff like that, so I am not asking your support. However, if you know people who like to support various d-charities or are just in the mindset of throwing money around, feel free to send them to my page. I swear, this is not directed at you readers per se. Just a stab in the dark. (FYI the JDRF Ride page is having issues, I will share the link when I can get to it.)

When I am going to flip my SH&^!

I curse sometimes. In fact, I probably curse more than I should. However, it is usually for a justifiable reason. Today’s post for instance is probably going to be one of those reasons. If you have delicate eyes, you may want to put up some filters or just pretend you never saw this post appear in your news feed, email, or where ever you have seen this post linked to.

Last year around this time I had an issue with my insurance company and the provider of services for my DME supplies. The posts I am referring to can be found here and here. Usually when things occur, I like to protect the anonymity of the companies involved as I don’t want to leave people with a bad taste in their mouth for either an insurance provider or a DME supply company. The keywords being normally. This time not so much. I am at the end of my rope with Edgepark and their inability to handle me as a customer.

The back story is simple. November is rolling around and with that being the case I needed to reorder a new CGM transmitter as I was getting the warning of death that we have all seen. Nothing out of the ordinary. As the CGM warranty expired November 12th, I could not actually begin the process until November 12th. So, that morning I called and spoke to a very friendly reorder representative who was going to process my claim. (Now as with anytime I make a supply reorder, I explain to the representative that I need to have a pre-authorization from Blue Cross/Blue Shield of New Jersey for any DME claim over $500. I tell them, plus there is a note on my file.) The rep looks over my information, says he may need a new prescription or something from the Doctor’s office, but it should be fine. I ask him to add one box of sensors to the order as well, this way when December hits, I can do my 90 day supply and be set in this past benefit year. Not a problem. He calls me back later in the afternoon to tell me everything is fine and my out of pocket will be $XXX. Perfect, charge my credit card. I’m fine with that. In my head, I’m thinking, man this was too easy.

December rolls around and I get my first EOB on the claim from my insurance company. This service is not covered by my insurance company. WTF!!!!!!! I know it is covered, back in May/June when I was doing research on the current warranty of my insulin pump, I spoke with a very nice representative at Horizon and we verified benefits and made sure that all was in order. Which of course it was. So now I am a little pissed off.

A few days later, I get a phone call from a representative from Edgepark to say that my claim has been denied by the insurance company both the one from November and the one from an order made in June because the order is being shipped to an address not on my account. No shit, you can’t send packages via UPS or Fedex to a PO Box. So he asked that I call my insurance company to sort out the address discrepancy. Once again, I make a phone to Blue Cross or Horizon, or whatever name I use for the insurance company. The person who I speak to on this call, is once again nothing but the nicest/friendliest if not confused person in the world. The insurance representative looked at the claims and the reason for denial and said that in no way was the problem associated with an address issue. He further went and made a call to Edgepark to speak with billing to get me more information.

Basically after about an hour on the phone with this individual it was confirmed there was an error on the end of Edgepark and their billing office was working on it. Mid-December I get a new EOB from Horizon, guess what, the problem is still there. Now I am pissed to no end. I know it is not the fault of my insurance company, but I still make a call to verify benefits. The representative who I speak to this time is even nicer than the last guy. We look at the DME coverage of benefits and everything is fine, once again she makes me aware of the fact that anything over $500 needs to be pre-authorized. So, we start the game again Eileen gives Edgepark a call once again to see what the issue is. She ends up speaking with someone in billing, who admits, “we messed up.” The person who originally submitted the claim got in house authorization, but never got the authorization from Horizon. Edgepark, was not billing me just yet, but was now in the process of getting the authorizations for a service provided. Ok, great, will this work? I still have no fucking clue.

Now we are coming to the end of the benefit year and I have two options, see if Edgepark has gotten their shit together or go elsewhere. In my earlier in the month conversation with my insurance company I was informed that Dexcom was listed as an in-network provider and I could go directly through them for CGM supplies. So while all of this mess is going on, I contact Dexcom to see how things stand with their relationship with my insurance, their rep Brian, was able to verify that they could get my supplies for me and it would cost about $185 for a 3-month supply. I questioned why it was so much more than Edgepark, where I was supposed to be able to get a 3-month supply for around $90. His guess made sense. So he was going to do more research for me, but also see if there was another 3rd party vendor that is not Edgepark that I can deal with that might be able to give me comparable rates. Mind you, the extra $80 is not going to break the bank, but if I don’t have to pay it. I am not going to pay that money.

After speaking with Dexcom I decided to give Edgepark one last chance to not screw me over. I call in a reorder for sensor supplies on the 22nd, which is more than enough time for the supply reorder. The person who I speak with looks over my account, sees TWO notes on file in regards to authorizations necessary and says, to not worry they have plenty of time to get the order processed. Skeptic that I am, I call to verify the status of my order on the 30th. They are having issues because of the other bills in their system and will try to push the order through before the New Year. 4:00 New Year’s Eve, I get an email that states they are just STARTING to work on my order and need to get the approvals, which could take 5-7 business days. ARE YOU F-ING kidding me?

I have done my job, I have done my due diligence, why the hell can’t you get your shit together and do what is right? This situation should never have even started, because my file has all the proper information in it, in regards to what needs to be done. More so, I cannot be the only person who has BC/BS of NJ that uses a CGM. Edgepark is the provider that is designated to work with our insurance company. How is there this much confusion? I am so very frustrated, in fact I am fucking fustrared. That’s how annoyed I am. Not only have they screwed me in November, still waiting on that resolution, now they are screwing me again in December/January. If this ever gets sorted out, I am sure this will be a “new” benefit year even though Edgepark has been sitting on this order since the 22nd. That means my out of pocket and deductible have been reset. I can’t remember what that is, ballpark $250/$350 plus the co-pay I will now need to pay. Which will most likely be $100.

We trust these companies to do right by us. We are expecting them to do the right thing. However, they are idiots more often than not, and we are the ones who suffer. Once all of this settles down, hopefully in my favor, which I doubt. I will be calling Dexcom and seeing what Brian was able to figure out for me. I will also be notifying those are both my insurance company and also Edgepark of the incompetence I have run into. Following that, I will be doing everything within my power to ensure that I never have to interact with Edgepark again, unless I have no other options. I will absorb the xtra cost associated with dealing with Dexcom if necessary, to just be able to avoid this crap in the future.

On a happier note, it’s a New Year and well puppies!!!!